When The Tip of Your Tongue Goes Numb

I am sure you had your reasons.

And the only difficult part for me is the fact that
I don’t know if letting you go means forgetting you as well.
And if it doesn’t, what does that mean?

How do I act?

I know that there is nothing I can do to change these facts
but fuck.

What I would give for just one more hug from you.

I have to steer clear of the things I want and
only go for the things I deserve.

Sometimes they are the same,
but most of the time they are not. I don’t feel like I have much
control. Everything is at my disposal, and yet I still feel
like I am not the one calling the shots.